Gentle Upstart

Gentle Upstart

Tuesday, September 12, 2017


Silence is the best place; no shouting except to myself; solitude where all is safe; comfortable; no criticism; just safety

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Looking After

She looked after everyone else
And no one looked after her
No one seems to want to mention her name

Wednesday, July 26, 2006


What is this higgledy piggledy strand of fate that we are all commanded by ?

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Only Explanation

When all seems lost; when the rain falls and the sun fades; God is the only explanation

Wednesday, December 28, 2005


Will you sit down at the back of the hall and shut up; this ain't no preaching

Sunday, December 18, 2005


Churches; Mosques; Temples; are the meeting places of tribes; God is something completely different; not that he has ever met him of course :-)

What is widsom ?

His wisdom is not his widsom; he cannot spell poor soul :-)

Shopping Centre

Jesus was born the saviour of mankind and died on the cross for the sin's of man; Corporates do not wish this to be known; in that christmas rush in that shopping centre; it might upset the balance a little; it would help the planet a lot; if it where known.

Monday, November 28, 2005


The snow came in a long gentle sheet; roll in it; rub it in your face; throw a snowball; make a snowman with a carrot nose; thank God there are still winters; remember that Mum; up in the Snowy.


Despite all that information; all that knowledge; all those insights; we know no more than we did all those countless generations ago when man walked the plains of Africa.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Damn !?

Everyone believes in their own reality; Damn !?

The field

Ran straight across the field today instead of around and around and around

Fear No Gods

Fearing no Gods; they think themselves Gods; have become lost in a jungle of concrete and plastic and pixels; all the birds and the flowers and the green forest have been destroyed and they simply do not care.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005


They seem to imply that he thinks too much; feels too much; remembers too much and wants to know everything about everything; way above his station; that it is only for philosophers and great men of substance; but he said nonsense and he thanked God for his countless neurons.

Barrow Boy

Walking by this guy; he proudly talked about the corporate mentality and the lowly barrow boy mentality; making sure it was heard.

What's the difference ?

The laughter stayed inside all day and comes back often.


The history we have been told is a flunk; its just geography and star position and random events


Tip for the day; do not become the stereotype that everyone wants you to be


The day was grey; cold; misty; the frost was on the ground even at noon; but inside it was still all warm


It seems that for one man to be free another has to be enslaved

Friday, November 11, 2005


Some can see, they feel, they know things that others do not; some can see, but they do not care, or feel and know very little but causing pain

Monday, November 07, 2005

What happened ?

What happened to all this idealism; it used to be socialism; humanism; a better world; now it is all just PSP and iPods and celebrity and Junk media and............ ;


This father and son thing; just want to say you are not forgotten in all this; for too long you were


It sounds like an excuse but (always but) it really does take a long time to untangle

Son and Father

As a son it was never understood what those flames did to you.


There are plenty of Robots out in Japan if needed

Monday, August 08, 2005


It was a very long time ago when he was a little boy and he heard his mother screaming


Mum said, "He behaves like this on their birthdays"; it took all this time to understand what she said.


Today; slipping in and out of Nirvana :-)


The man with the pointy side burns said I was like him; But I retorted I was not; he kept on insisting; he said, "you know where I am"; I replied, "I do not"; Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Fresh and Warm

Today the wind was awry; the trees swayed gracefully; it was fresh and warm; cumulus settled on the edge of the blue northern sky

Somewhat Sane

They say that there is only a God because of a 'God Spot' in the brain; or that it is an escape from 'reality', what ever that is; or that it is irrational, an escape from pain; All that can be said for that is, Thanks God for keeping me somewhat sane :-)


Going to the funfair is fine; but God, not every day, because then I will have time to talk to you.

Star Maker

Try this; More than SF


When things get buried in the sand; a strong tide or wind comes along anyway; and they become revealed


Had this vision; they where holding hands and smiling; and the children where playing like children children do


Everyone seems to believe in their own rationality; well that's just plain irrational


It was the early eighties sometime; we where walking through a colonnade of trees in Kew Gardens; Mum said' "One minute everything is fine and then the next minute..........'


Running around the same field time and time again

Sunday, July 24, 2005


Tumbling down sandhills with my brothers; complete and utter joy


Its the memory of a memory that cannot be recalled


There where Rottweilers, Bears, Bulls, Tigers and the odd Hyena with incredible big crunchy teeth; sharp black suits, spotless shirts, shiny shoes; all that muscle and belief ?!

Saturday, July 16, 2005


She who took an interest "I liked your company"; The first time in a long time; but I stutted, "You need warmth and love and someone to wake up to and someone to talk to and someone to run with on a sunny tropical beach and that's not me". Failing in words I said, "Thats what it did"

Tuesday, July 12, 2005


She who is gone and was a terrible loud mouth; said one day when it was heavy rain, 'People only believe you when you wear a suit'


She who is more pretty than she thinks; stood over me with her clip-board and said, 'I've got you now'.

Monday, July 11, 2005


I read this book; it slapped me in the face, it upset me, about what people are capable of; there was mention of love and a teddy bear and a young child and distant memories but that was all.

It really is worth a read; but you have to be strong and not run away from its message


Its annoying; I want perfection and yet I cannot manage it myself; a hopeless dream


She who reigns; wants me to join her meritocracy; after a lot of thinking, well no thinking at all actually; I find no merit in her cause


Its a day of doubts; its some awful feeling of insecurity that others have no right to persue

Strength & Wisdom

Trying to use strength and wisdom to understand; do not always succeed

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Time again

She who has'nt a thought in her head said the other day; 'My God, why is life so fast, at least slow it down, my children are sploit, have grown beyond me, my man is fat and farts, please God can we start again when we had are hearts'


Why can't we dispose of our bodies and travel as timeless travelling spirits


Sometimes things can be seen clearly; but they turn out illusions, even lies


Why are we afraid of our own silence ?


I wish I could be the person you want me to be
I wish you could be the person that I want you to be

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Route ?

If most want to go that route; I will turn and go the other way


Consciousness is an unadulterated gift


Is there such a thing as a pure idea; without contradiction ? without dilemma ?


She who knows said, that I said, that he said, you got it wrong, you know what I mean and now I forget; what she said ? Help !!! :-)

Chemicals and God

The scientist requires emotions are related to chemical atoms rather than with reality and perceptions; The angry young man insists all men are free to think and do and fight as they wish;
God smiles; its no ones fault

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Stop it !!!

Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha

Must develop self control !

Oh no, no, no, no

Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha

OK; stopping now :-)


Do you hear the one about the American, Mc Donald's and the Lifestyle Guru in the SUV; sorry its unrepeatable and you might take offence, but it goes something like this.........................................

Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha !!!

Forgive me, could not help it; gentle nature has turned outward into raucous laughter, much calmer now. Phew !

Hop, skip and a run

A hop, skip and a run is all that it takes; it won't work, because we are fat and lazy, and we might just hurt ourselves, if only with a bruise


Those out there; them; yes them they are trying to stop us seeing the real world. Who are them, they are us<<<

World of Pixels

Getting through to all that pixelation is tough work


Nature is the core of everything we are and yet we are detached; remote; destructive to it

Friday, June 17, 2005

Not in pain all the time

No, not in pain all the time; sometimes its needed so as not to betray the past


Some people are lucky; man the master, lady coy, as if in some exquisite fairy land.


One has to get used to the fact that fate is immutable and little or nothing can be done about it

Awful time

Romanticising some pain; a martyr to suffering; yes, but if only it was so simple. It really was an awful time.